So much as happened since my last entry. It's been, what, five months. So I won't end up going to doctoral school in the fall but I think that is a good thing. I moved back in with my parents (not sure how I feel about that just yet). And I got a new job, which I love so far.
So my plan goes something like this.
Take a break
I fully intend on having fun this summer but I also want to do some soul searching too.
I know that I love to play and I know that I love to research so I think that this summer is the best time to find a way to balance my two loves, and be more financially stable.
Practicing has been really hard so far because I feel like I'm bothering my parents. I think that I may need to find a better place to practice. I don't know where though.
I also have been having a hard time organizing my practice time. And if you know me then that is saying something. I am usually very organized and methodical about my practice but without a specific piece to work on for a class or performance I am lost as to what to play. Maybe I need to start preparing a new piece, just for me. I don't know.
For now I think that I will take a break from research for another week or two. Get my priorities in order. Practice more. Take a break.